Dedicated to my children, who remain unquestionably the greatest joy of my life,
and to all children everywhere.
This book is a memoir. It reflects public court records, fifteen years of the author’s daily journalized notes, and personal recollections of experiences over time. Names have been changed, some events have been compressed, and some dialogue has been recreated. But no characters have been invented, no events have been fabricated, and I have done my best to make it tell a truthful story which I hope will help.
Trigger Warning for Survivors
The Preface of this memoir contains statistics and information about childhood sexual abuse. These details are included to help the wider public and decision-makers understand the scope and lasting consequences of abuse.
For survivors, however, this material may feel overwhelming or triggering. Please know: you do not need to read the preface to follow my story. If at any point the data feels too heavy, I encourage you to skip directly to Chapter 1, where my journey begins in a more personal and gentle way.
The chapters weave together my lived experience with the joys of raising my children. My hope is that these stories offer moments of light and connection, even as they touch on difficult truths.
Your wellbeing matters most. Take care of yourself as you read, and move through this memoir at the pace that feels right for you.